So I wrote the dirge below as a challenge to any clinicians to explain all this before they lay on something like "paranoid delusional", "psychosis" and the rest of their unsubstantiated (paid-for) clinical disingenuousness. Yes, I am getting scared (rational paranoid) they are going to pack me away for another round of debilitating treatment like last time. So if this blog stops without me giving any notice, that is the likely cause. And by dint of planning, there is no on-line access in the hospital and the nearby public one shut down.
An Open Letter to Clinicians to Explain Associated and Bizarre Non-clinical Events
with Their Diagnosis
This is my life as a TI, 07-16-2006, v.2.2
These are some of the more consistent events of a nonclinical nature that have been ongoing or have occured since 05-2002 and are not related to any course of medications, be they deemed "causal" (per clinal diagnosis or cover story/fabrication, take your pick) or those deemed ameliorative (same caveat). This is factual information and should not be considered to be interpretive.
Most of these events described below occur frequently, if not daily or nearly so, and to date, have not been included in the entire context of my circumstances except by me, with few exceptions. The only exceptions are Dr. Scheildrop (belatedly) who I saw from 2002 to 2005, and on my last visitation (01-2005) who (finally) suggested "persecution", and my ADD counselor in Seattle, himself once hospitalized for psychosis, who indicated that what I was experiencing was NOT psychosis related.
- repeated clustering or streaming of the same colored vehicles (approx. 4 - 8) around me in traffic. Also observed by my brother who was driving one time. The most consistent vehicle colors that cluster around me are; dark red metallic finish, dark green metallic, silver grey (same as mine), and white. The navy blue, mid-red, black, orange, brown and light green vehicles are selectively placed in the latter part of a sortie. Sometimes these colors are changed for a greycard type exposure: black, white and varying greytoned vehicles will cluster about my silver grey vehicle, possibly with one other non-neutral color. Other configurations are also consistent, e.g. being the last vehicle in a train of 5 to 15 vehicles in city driving,
- racing me in traffic for no seeming cause,
- early morning (0200h to 0600h) groups of traffic that are coordinated to pass me one vehicle at a time,
- firing laser or plasma beams at me and/or my eyes from other vehicles while driving, three occurences (2002 only),
- at a traffic control, a lead vehicle in the lane will stop partway into the crosswalk nearly every intersection,
- backing up in the middle of the street in front of me on a busy thoroughfare.
- the unrelenting coincidence of apparent shoppers or staff at every location in a store where I wish to visit, even during low traffic times (shoppers are often wearing oversized backpacks),
- a profusion of seeming pedestrians &/or store staff near me, often coordinating in locations to pinch me in and to get closer than is normally socially acceptable, or who otherwise cluster around me on the street, in stores and any other public locations. Often they are wearing color coordinated clothing like that of Vehicular Gangstalking (e.g. greys, white, black, red etc.see above) and often appear behind glass, then not, or conversely, outside of a vehicle, then inside,
- an orchestrated extra aggregation of staff and/or pedestrians at checkouts each time I retrieve my wallet and pay for my items,
- an unusually odd re-occurence of some (approx. 12) personnel who appear to have gangstalked me in Seattle, then later in Victoria at my apartment building, where I hike, where I shop (multiple locations), my optometrist's office and in a fire department callout in my apartment building. Also, friends of mine in Seattle are associating with my friends in Victoria whom I have never introduced nor reasonalbly expect to cross paths, seen jointly hiking when doing same.
House Care, Current Residence
- grey markings are re-applied overnight to the kitchen floor two days after cleaning and incrementally every few days,
- slashed counter top while out (I use a cutting board all the time),
- olive oil droplets on the kitchen floor that appear overnight, and disappear the next night,
- slashed painted area of the stove controls area,
- continued progressive black or white markings of furniture, doorway and hallway walls.
Noise Events, Current Residence
- strange usage patterns of neighbor's water with the onset coincident with webpage display changes, external noise sources, specific word processor actions (file saving, correction of text, adding or deletion of bookmarks, or in off/on bursts each time I awake in the night (for no known reason),
- tapping noises overhead that then proceeded down the wall which would of required upstairs and adjacent neighbor cooperation,
- the noise of emergency/siren sounding vehicles, loud motorcycles, "tuned" mufflered passenger vehicles and heavy duty vehicles that do not materialize on Fort St., the adjacent thoroughfare, where my apartment is positioned to see at least an alleyway's width of the complete street.
- ear muffs which I use to block external noises slowly develop a horrendous din, ringing sounds and crackling in both ears.
- four income tax reassessments in four years over the same item in which I have won each time when I never had any re-assessments for the previous 30 years of paying taxes.
- there is constant non-standard Windows behaviour with select, cut & paste, often in association with the selection of grammatic article "the" and Noise Events (above),
- there are additional users on the computer I cannot get off (no "apparent" authority and am the designated PC administrator),
- there are strange random charactered name files on the computer I did not create and cannot delete ("locked by another user"),
- most web pages have greatly reduced graphics which are incrementally added back with continued usage over a period of months or years,
- frequent blocking web page actions; saves, checkout, purchase,
- strong whitish late day emanations from my LCD display screen (PC) that cause severe eye reddening,
- wrong pages displaying from selection of a window and excessive crashes of the web browser (no other system problems).
- a 3" x 1/8" straight line routed vertical cut on the plastic facia of my PC. First as a routed slot with a black painted groove bottom, then some months later, it was cut through the plastic cover, and on a third pass, was filled with a transparent plastic to view red and green lights behind the panel.
Current Appearance & Clothing
- age regression; a sudden (over 4 weeks in 2004) incursion of becoming significantly younger looking by about 20 years,
- my sway back was straightened out about the same time and the abdominal musculature improved,
- veins have become prominent on the back of my hand,
- zappings in the same location in my neck above my adams apple, once (2002) also painful ones in my head,
- whole or partial body "zappings" as if being electrified momentarily with simultaneous overhead ceiling or adjacent wall sourced rapping noise,
- my face has taken on an asymmetric appearance, my right eyebrow is 1" higher than my left side eybrow,
- my underwear hems are constantly being pulled and/or flipped often in concert with transient environmental noise and/or changes in my position and location,
- my shirt is often being gently pulled when I am sitting at my desk; usually it is manipulated at the same location, 3" - 4" below the neckline over my spine, and sometimes in concert with the same on my chest area.
- a possible clinical exception to this list; spontaneous bleeding on my nose, free from where any shaving razor travels or lesions, and the blood droplet sits in my lower peripherial vison field.
Visual Phenomena, Vision Perturbances, Current Residence
- transitory plasma and/or maser beams are evident in my apartment almost all the time, even emanating from people on occasion, and they may emanate from, or pass through, others who visit (witnessed by others at the same time),
- constant "ghosting" of images onscreen (PC) usually in color variants of extant display colors as extra onscreen colors and also as patterns projected offscreen (on bezel) and beyond it.
- apartment hallways have a constant and palpable "plasmic fog" as well as plasma beam emanations down the hall or in parallel or oblique directions,
- plasma beams, usually red and orange, appear over and beside my keyboard and cause no harm if my fingers penetrate them to reach the keys,
- similar plasmic ghosting and some maser and/or plasma beams occur when hiking on trail, though much reduced from my residence,
- so-called eye "floaters" in optometrist's terminology that have become extremely active and scoot about in my vision in pairs in formation, and can even track my reading line, and zig-zag toward me (seemingly) within the vertical confines of an object in my vision,
- reading books also have the same characteristics as text seen on my LCD display (PC); plasmic ghosting of text in yellow and bright white emanations from the page.
Family &/or Friends Behaviour
- no mention of obvious age regression (above) or bald area disappearence in 2004,
- periodic starings at me for no reason whatsoever by persons I don't know,
- they engage in similar gangstalking behaviour (standing still near me for no apparent purpose),
- both brothers smirking at me on every visit as to my plight, clinical or not,
- no objective or open minded inquiry as to analysis of what is happening, my current wellbeing,
- no discussion of future plans, income situation or lifestyle inquiry,
- an event when (2003) I dispatched my parents to see their "handler" (my words) to end the then infuriating facial maser strikes, in which they did (depart at least), and the maser strikes were stopped. They never inquired as to the outcome and specifically avoided me afterward (when I was living there) and have never mentioned it since,
- cessation of contact of all three hiking friends within one month, through no untoward action by myself or other discord.
Consistent Experiences with Other Harassees and So-termed Targeted Individuals
I have spoken with at least six others who experience identical harassment activities which also include application of pain, pressure and muscle vibrations by remote means. As a very brief introduction to many hundreds of websites that discuss the same non-clinical events as above, see:
- Eleanor White of http://www.raven1.net/
- Citizens Against Technological and Covert Harassment of: http://www.c-a-t-c-h.ca/
- Electronic Harassment of: www.eharassment.ca
- Mind Justice of: http://www.mindjustice.org/
My story is written (and cannot be updated) up on;
- http://tiworld.blogspot.com/ (current events).
The Cummulative Improbability of a Significant Number of Coincidences
Many of the above events are highly improbable in a single occurence, and yet they re-occur consistently. But cummulatively, there would be even less likelihood if the above were random events, and yet, I am the only one who applies any objective analysis as to the collective improbability and conveys this to family or clinicians. In response, they simply don't reply and go mute and attempt to change the subject. And, of note, any family discussions always begin as if they haven't remembered any of what I have told them.
And also of consideration, most of what has transpired above fits with the pattern of past odd events and behaviours of others through my entire life before the above events began in 04-2002.
In my opinion, the above activity strongly suggests non-consensual human experimentation and organized harassment by way of unconventional (action-at-a-distance) energies. If a clinical diagnosis cannot explain the majority of the above events, then I humbly suggest that clinical causal is fallacious and specious and serves only as a cover story. Furthermore, there has been no clinical association whatsoever between any medication course (anti-psychotics) and above mentioned events (in four years).