Social Isolation is Central to Harassment

The faux family birthday party was a squalid success; a single 2' ball shaped gold/sparkle candle on commercial cheescake served as our daughter's 16th birthday cake. And to no surprise, a similar colored metallic gold plastic handbag was lying on the floor only 8' away. There is something attractive about flames and fires to the perps. They have started up a number of them, and gangstalkers will often smoke cigarettes near me. I will detail more on this in another post.

I was duly rendered into a shit mood and having and unpleasant outlook as to everything. There is not much they like doing more than creating situations where they instignate incidents to piss on a party.

The perps have this compelling need to sabotage expectations, and nothing is better than a party where there are many "victims"/monitorees or however this maybe framed. Call me overly conditioned if you like, but anytime there is some spectacularly horrific event at a wedding or other large crowd of well-wishing attendees, I cannot help the notion that comes to mind, (assuming I am not being fed this), that the perps had a hand in instignating the chaos or even tragedy. The games of playing dashed expectations on me alone reach four or more decades back, and cause me to wonder why they have been so consistently relentless about pursuing this theme.

As I mentioned in the last posting, I was worked up into a frazzled and despondent state at the above birthday party, though this did not translate into pissing anyone off thankfully. Keeping the emotional lid on me they were, where if I wasn't mind-controlled, I wouldn't have anything to do with the lot of them, save my daughter who is knowledgeable of the perp's goings on.

But I should mention that both my brothers who have at times pretended to be analytical about the strange goings on and the separation of clinical events (faked) from the nonclinical activities early in the game, now think this entire harassment and psychotorture escapade, in its fifth year, to be absolutely hilarious. A smirk at best, and a contained grin at worst, and never any objective analysis from any of them. And to drive the point home, that is not a normal reaction to a family member who has a clinical "problem" or otherwise. It is totally abnormal, and neither will respond to the charge of their strange behavior.

And the parents, who I see once per week for Feral Family Dinner on Sundays, aren't so humored, but do make every effort to studiously evade any conversation as to what is or might be going on, time without fail, each week. They pretend to play dumb all the time, and should I reference any incontrovertable nonclinical evidence or events, they immediately go quiet, as if the entire purpose of the conversation was to elicit this very item of knowledge from me. There is no such thing as an objective and interactive conversation about my circumstances whatsoever. Any conversation with my brothers, should it be permitted, always ends the same, a conversational dead-spot to elicit some kind of pre-planned conversational trigger point

So naturally the "family" becomes a pointless support/social body by virture of their over obvious participation in the harassment, and thereby eliminates themselves from being genuinely useful. And the odd so-thought friends who have "shown up" in the game, uniformly drop out once their past participation becomes known. My three hiking friends, who were all aware of this harassment, about which I was careful in revealing how much and its all encompassing nature, each dropped out from returning phone calls in the same month. Any of my past work colleagues to whom that I have mentioned this harassment in passing by way of an X-Files metaphor, seemed to be aware of it, and should I see them again, they never mention anything. The proverbial elephant in the room, or denial management in the extreme. And these traits are absolutely consistent among them all, everyone.

And my story which I wrote up to dispell the clinical causes was not read by anyone, save a ADD counselor in Seattle I was seeing, and to whom I introduced this harassment. He read it and said that he personally experienced psychosis that required two weeks of hospitalization, and what I described in my written story was not it. The only one, though he was early in the harassment onset and wasn't part of any later developments as he lives in another city and country.

And the amazing thing is how common this aspect is with other TI's; family break-ups and dissonance are routine and appear to be prescribed as standard procedure. Apparently it has not been enough for the perps to grind me down for a 47 year lifetime, and then jump on me with more of it, now in its fifth year running.

Even my few TI contacts have been mysteriously terse or purposely wacko, also begetting an early termination of any continued contact. How this is done I am not sure; are they "in" on it or mind-controlled to create social adversity? One wacko case seemed to be reading a semi-apocalyptic dirge by the end of the phone call, though there is nothing on her website to suggest that is a part of her thoughts. Others start out seeming to be aligned with the injury and past harassment activities, but won't discuss anything as to what the perps want, besides 100% mind control. (The James Bond film title, "The World is Not Enough" comes to mind, possibly as a planted metaphor).The TI's then drop out of any sustained contact.

I once belonged to a swim club in Victoria, for 10 years straight and then moved to Everett and Seattle. When I came back, they were friendly, but appeared to be part of the harassment, gangstalking mostly. Anyhow, I gave up on the swim club and swam on my own at noon times, only to have a new flotilla of gangstalkers and operatives around me. So here was another social group that was cut from my existence.

I sometimes see some of the swimmers by "happenchance" on the streets and stores, and it is likely that a number of them were operatives at the time. Some seemed to be permanent students and I wondered how they pulled this off financially. Now I know; they were hired by the perps, and quite a few others made that mysterious one year visitation "back east" only to come back and say things "hadn't worked out". The mystery of the returning swimmers is solved.

Even posting my updated story on mindcontrolforums.com (victim AJH story) has been an adverse event. None of the two updates since 2004 have been posted, and yet the webmaster is supposedly a victim supportive TI. I cannot get any communication from her, and alternate routes via the TI groups list suggest that she is slow to undertake maintenance. (She wasn't at first, and now is; and it has been a year since I attempted an update). Even this blog, posted on the TI groups page gets no TI commentary at all, save two brief mentions. No discussion on the perps intentions and methods has been permitted with any supposed supporting/understanding contact. A few TI's have gone into flame mode, no matter how innocuous my comments are. All more bizarreness to ponder over and yet it is totally consistent across the board.

Enough for a posting; I read some other's stories, and they are highly consistent with mine. Try Brussel Sprout